Wednesday Vignette – from the window seat

It is a sweet feeling to reconnect – to catch up with old friends, and to hear their stories. And, it is priceless to visit family. We live so far away from the rest of our clans. It was our choice to move – we wanted things you couldn’t get where we were. We figured we could always visit “once in a while”. That “once in a while” turned out to be rather “rarely”. The exclusivity and distance sinks in when you realize that the kids were half the size they are now, last time they visited their grandparents.


We laughed when we showed up at a party friends had arranged, at how we all looked like our parents – it had been so long… It was the first time my best beloved had seen all his former roommates together in one room, in 28 years! Gray hairs, sagging skin, and crow’s feet aside – judging from the cheer and the banter, we might as well never have left.IMG_7923

Our trip was a whirlwind – parties in our honor, familiar faces of many, many friends, beloved family members, visits to old favorite restaurants (which were still there). All older and a little more worn – including us. We had that soft, comfy feeling of a flannel shirt that has been washed a hundred times – we were all there, and we only got better with age. IMG_7929

It was hard to leave. A mix of sadness, angst, and guilt. Will everyone still be there next time we return? Isolated from our past, it’s easy to lose track of time. As the plane took off, I fretted over our choices. The urge to be a part is strong, and family weighs heavily. No one should have to carry the weight of generations alone – yet those that remain do. From here, we’re as distant and removed as passengers on a plane – gazing down from a window seat. And, it’s a cold place to be.

About annamadeit

I was born and raised in Sweden, By now, I have lived almost as long in the United States. The path I’ve taken has been long and varied, and has given me a philosophical approach to life. I may joke that I’m a sybarite, but the truth is, I find joy and luxury in life’s simple things as well. My outlook on life has roots in a culture rich in history and tradition, and I care a great deal about environmental stewardship. Aesthetically, while drawn to the visually clean, functional practicality and sustainable solutions that are the hallmarks of modern Scandinavia, I also have a deep appreciation for the raw, the weathered, and the worn - materials that tell a story. To me, contrast, counterpoint, and diversity are what makes life interesting and engaging. Color has always informed everything I do. I’m a functional tetrachromat, and a hopeless plantoholic. I was originally trained as an architect working mostly on interiors, but soon ventured outside - into garden design. It’s that contrast thing again… An interior adrift from its exterior, is like a yin without a yang. My firm conviction that everything is connected gets me in trouble time and time again. The world is a big place, and full of marvelous distractions, and offers plentiful opportunities for inquiry and exploration. I started writing to quell my constant queries, explore my discoveries, and nurture my curiosity. The Creative Flux was started in 2010, and became a catch-all for all kinds of intersecting interests. The start of Flutter & Hum at the end of 2013 marks my descent into plant nerd revelry. I occasionally contribute to other blogs, but those two are my main ones. For sure, topics are all over the map, but then again - so am I! Welcome to my blogs!
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14 Responses to Wednesday Vignette – from the window seat

  1. A good, nostalgic, trip. It is good that you made it

  2. Tina says:

    The passage of time isn’t something most of us realize day-to-day. Then, it thunks us in the head!

  3. Peter Herpst says:

    This brings to mind Robert Frost’s “The Road Not Taken.” It’s a blessing that in our day and age, we can go back and visit that road. The roads we choose, the doors we open are formative to us as individuals yet there’s often a longing, a wondering about what might be if we’d chosen a different path. Saying goodbye/moving on, leaving home – your pictures paint a bittersweet feeling. I’m glad that you had a good visit and enjoyed a nice slice of nostalgia.

    • annamadeit says:

      Thanks Peter – that is a great poem… I don’t think I fully emotionally understood it when we studied it in English back in the Stone Age, but I totally get it now.

  4. Alison says:

    I’m glad you had a good visit. I still have family back east, but I seldom travel back there. I’m a very bad traveler, I want them all to come to me. I did a WV today, it’s here:

    • annamadeit says:

      Family is one big draw, of course, but I haven’t seen my husband that happy in years, as when he was surrounded by his old friends, bandmates, colleagues, etc. Honestly, I would move back in a second if I could see more of that.

  5. Damn Anna…it’s too early in the morning to tear up! But still, you had me doing so. It is so hard to be far away from family, even if it’s only 5 hours by car as in my case. Glad you got to go home!!!
    My WV:

    • annamadeit says:

      Sorry Loree – I kind of tear up too, just thinking about it. It IS hard to be so far away, especially with aging parents. The day after we left, my stepdad was hospitalized, which scares the crap out of me. He is still there, but he’s in good hands in case something happens. They are running a number of tests, and figuring all kinds of things out, which is good – even if it’s bad. At times like now, I want to be there for them so badly…

  6. Funny, I did a bit of traveling this week too, and ended up reuniting with three girlfriends on two separate trips, all of whom I hadn’t seen in far too long. Something in the stars this week?
    I did a WV as well (totally unrelated):

  7. Kris P says:

    As usual, you did a brilliant job of matching your words and your imagery. I hope you carried many wonderful memories back home with you. The world is shrinking and maybe travel will someday be much simpler and faster.

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