While seeing the struggles of people around me may chip away at my sense of security and tug at my heart, I still often feel strangely insulated from the realities of others. I empathize, yet I’m an outside observer. I think one of humanity’s hallmarks is to wield denial with bravado, as a way to self protect. As in, “It can’t/won’t happen to me”. But, the older I get, the clearer it becomes – no one is immune. At some point or other, something WILL happen – to me, to my beloved, to family, to friends… whomever. Although attempts to reason is almost always part of coming to terms with life-altering events and progressions – other than as a sort of emotional balm, these judgements and post-rationalizations are rather meaningless. Because nobody is immune to Fate’s whims.
This past week, and over the past few months, I’ve seen that Frau Fortuna might have other plans than what I might reasonably have constructed as a logical possibility – based on what I thought I “knew”. Seeing this leaf, helplessly speared on a Hesperaloe shoot, reinforced that sometimes overwhelming sense of capricious futility and randomness of events – Fate’s great equalizer. We are all vulnerable to the whims of the world – anyone and everyone might – and will – fall victim to its twists and turns. Enjoy your loved ones while you can, don’t take what you have for granted, and – above all – don’t judge.