Wednesday Vignette – the speed of time

I currently find myself in a bit of a chase. My days are whirling by so fast, I can barely keep up, juggling an extraordinary number of things. It’s so weird how time can seemingly distort itself. There was a time this spring, when I felt like time practically stood still. We were in Covid lockdown, every day was more or less the same, and it didn’t really make a difference what day it actually was. I think it also helped that the days were longer, but for a while there, it felt like I lived quite a blessed existence, safe and protected from whatever might lurk outside our little bubble. Life was lived a little in slow motion.

However, things gradually speeded up, and eventually kicked me out of my blissful dream. When you get constantly pounded by events, they tend to pile up like cars in a multiple car crash, and it becomes nearly impossible to separate the long string of coincidental, temporal collisions. When I try to disentangle the various dates, and I realize that whatever seemed to have taken place in a distant memory, in fact only happened three weeks ago, it’s overwhelming.

I’m not sure exactly what triggered this reaction of mine. Remember back in spring, when we saw interviews with front line workers? Harrowing visions of exhausted, overwhelmed healthcare workers, working double shifts to keep up, and the visible mental cost the stress extolled. That was then, when it was all new and fresh. Over time, the stories became more patient centered, and soon enough, it became a numbers game. The folks on the front lines faded and the rest of us entered into an odd sense of insulation.

But guess what…? Whatever it was that brought it back to me, gave me an acute realization that although I myself have gotten numbed to the stark reality of the world around me, these front line heroes are still very much in the thick of it. While from my privileged perch things seemed more or less normalized, we are in fact entering a third spike of infections. And although we don’t hear much about it anymore, I imagine there are still shortages of critical resources, central to their wellbeing and protection. They can still be found sobbing in their cars, upon completion of their double shifts.

Once again, I realize how lucky I am to be in a line of work that focuses on biophilia and beauty, and that allows me to spend ample time in the exhilarating diversity of Nature, in the company of living things. It beats crying in a parking lot any way you look at it, and offers the kind of enviable grounding and healing we all crave. This evening, I was privileged to visit a new friend’s garden when the fading light hit it just so. I dedicate this week’s Vignette shot to all of you who spend all hours of day and night running up and down fluorescently lit hospital corridors, without much opportunity to see the fragile fall beauty on full display outside, as you bust your tails trying to salvage as many as possible from the potential tragedy of a highly politicized, often ignored pandemic. You may no longer be top of the news, but you are at the top of my heart. Thank you.

I was awestruck by the purple Callicarpa berries against the chartreuse conifer and the blushing leaves of a Cornus. Thanks again, JoEllen, for a very nice break in the routine!

About annamadeit

I was born and raised in Sweden, By now, I have lived almost as long in the United States. The path I’ve taken has been long and varied, and has given me a philosophical approach to life. I may joke that I’m a sybarite, but the truth is, I find joy and luxury in life’s simple things as well. My outlook on life has roots in a culture rich in history and tradition, and I care a great deal about environmental stewardship. Aesthetically, while drawn to the visually clean, functional practicality and sustainable solutions that are the hallmarks of modern Scandinavia, I also have a deep appreciation for the raw, the weathered, and the worn - materials that tell a story. To me, contrast, counterpoint, and diversity are what makes life interesting and engaging. Color has always informed everything I do. I’m a functional tetrachromat, and a hopeless plantoholic. I was originally trained as an architect working mostly on interiors, but soon ventured outside - into garden design. It’s that contrast thing again… An interior adrift from its exterior, is like a yin without a yang. My firm conviction that everything is connected gets me in trouble time and time again. The world is a big place, and full of marvelous distractions, and offers plentiful opportunities for inquiry and exploration. I started writing to quell my constant queries, explore my discoveries, and nurture my curiosity. The Creative Flux was started in 2010, and became a catch-all for all kinds of intersecting interests. The start of Flutter & Hum at the end of 2013 marks my descent into plant nerd revelry. I occasionally contribute to other blogs, but those two are my main ones. For sure, topics are all over the map, but then again - so am I! Welcome to my blogs!
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11 Responses to Wednesday Vignette – the speed of time

  1. A fine dedication. We are so grateful to be retired at this time

  2. Lovely Anna, thank you

  3. Kris P says:

    It’s a beautiful photo capture, Anna, and a wonderful sentiment. A good friend’s husband is an ER doctor and, hearing updates periodically, I remain all too aware of what they have to deal with and the risks they take every time they go to work. Here’s my WV:

  4. Things are definitely heating up, not that they ever were able to cool off.

    My WV from a beautiful day spent hiking along a river…

    • annamadeit says:

      The thing that boggles me is that this is something where we can all – at least to some extent – mitigate the kinds of risks we expose ourselves to. I’m astounded that so many don’t…

  5. hb says:

    Well said. The best most of us can do for those working in Covid-19 wards is to not ever forget their work and sacrifice, and to not get Covid-19.

  6. janesmudgeegarden says:

    A very fitting and heartfelt dedication for people who risk their lives every day.

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